i just don't understand

i am so sick of people being pessimistic

i am so tired of people always doubting

why can;t we try

why do people alway expect things to fail

i try to come up with fun ideas and they are shot down

nobody wants to take that risk and nobody wants to listen to me

to see them makes me smile

last night was the first youth group since Tuscarora

and i am so happy to see those kids getting excited about youth group!

it is soo great to see how they have changed and to see the fire they have.

i pray that they stay connected not just to the youth group but to God

and i pray that i can help them any way i can!

life could you be a little softer to me

one week ago today i was sitting in the snack shop playing cards, having no cares, and looking foreward to the best weekend ever.

now here i sit beaten down by life

i miss the serenity of that place i miss the carefree laughter, i miss feeling so close to God but i am trying to remember that being with God doesn't have to be a semi yearly visit it can and i hope it will be a dailly thing

i want to be close i want my light to shine i want His light to shine in me

the devil won today

I think that sometime songwritters follow people around and write songs that match their live experiences

ok maybe not but songs prove to me that we are all the same and also unique.

someone introduced me to a new songwriter~ Blake Aaron you should look him up

ya it mite just change your life

your light will shine when all else fades

as i sit and listen to the beautiful words of hillsong united i look back on the weekend and I am amazing at how much this weekend has changed me

i have been going to Winter Weekend for 7 years and every year i say that i am on fire and i want to stay that way but my attention is always pulled away i lose that fire i my light fades my candle burns down.

this year i want my light to burn continually i want to stay on fire!

here i am Lord

ok i hear you, what should i do

i know God is speaking to me

i have been hearing a lot of things that are convincing me that going out there, being ready, and being a part of God's service is the right thing to do

but since i am hearing this stuff so much i can't help but wonder is there more that God wants me to do?

come and go with me to my father's house

Imagine yourself as a living house. God comes in to rebuild that house. At first, perhaps, you can understand what He is doing. He is getting the drains right and stopping the leaks in the roof and so on: you knew that those jobs needed doing and so you are not surprised. But presently He starts knocking the house about in a way that hurts abominably and does not seem to make sense. What on earth is He up to? The explanation is that He is building quite a different house from the one you thought of — throwing out a new wing here, putting on an extra floor there, running up towers, making courtyards. You thought you were going to be made into a decent little cottage: but He is building a palace. He intends to come and live in it Himself.~ CS Lewis

ok so i didn't find this quote by myself, but how great a picture is that

ya sometime there are things in this life that are going to hurt, they are going to knock you down and you may not understand why in the world this is happening

but God has a plan for you life and as the old saying goes what doesn't kill you only makes you stronger.

God wants to rebuild your life and make it more beautiful than ever before, will you let him do that?

i don't want to leave the comfort of this place

Tuscarora is in 14 days

that fact alone makes me happier than most

i am so ready to go, to get plugged into that power source for a weekend and be recharged

i am also so excited for all the first timers, this weekend is the best experience that you can imagine

so lets get ready, get excited and get pumped for TUSCARORA WINTER WEEKEND!