gravity is pulling me

why is it that something that i was so sure of 2 months ago seems to become something of huge doubt

i just don;t know what to do

i really want to go to tuscarora, but there are more and more reasons coming up that would lead me to stay home

i feel like i am being pulled in two completely different directions

one direction is that of home, friends, church, and being here to enjoy summer

the other completely unknown

maybe the fact that it is unknown is my answer

i have no idea which way God is leading me

i know he will be with me whatever i decide to do but i wish that the lamp on my path was just a bit larger

stress

plans fall through

and with that falling out stress comes along

i am worried about living in akron, i am worried about living with someone i don't even know, i am worried about being in a place that i am completely new in

i just need prayers that things will work out