Wait

Blessings have been chucked upon me this year

I am blessed with an amazing group of friends who i love so much
I am blessed with an amazing church and Campus Focus
I am blessed with my small group and the lessons i learn there
I am blessed to be able to afford (more the most part) an education

but still i sit and i become dissatisfied with my life, with God

I become so impatient with God and his timing i look to other things to give me happiness, i run after boys, relationships, and other idols that do me no good

And i know God is pleading with me to just wait, be patient to wait on Him because he has so many blessings to give me

help me to wait and be content in you

And its just you and me here now

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OWsBCznPFcE


Take my heart, I Lay it down
At the feet of you whose crowned

Take my life, I’m letting go
I lift it upto You who’s throned
And I will worship You, Lord Only You, Lord
And I will bow down before You Only You Lord

Take my fret, take my fear
All I have, I’m leaving here
Be all my hopes, be all my dreams
Be all my delights, be my everything

And It’s just you and me here now
Only you and me here now

You should see the view
When it’s only You

Every night I grab my Bible and my Ipod, i turn the volume up and let this song invade me...

This is my prayer...
I desperatly want to give you my life, my dreams...I want you to consume me. I want you to be all i live for.

I am afraid to let go, to let someone else be in control. But I know that if you are in control there is no way my life can be messed up, because you are PERFECT. And you know exactly what you want with me. you have my life planed out, i just have to let you lead me.

So today i let it all go, i am trusting you.

I want it to be just you and me

Because When it is is just you and me it is the most beautiful thing

and all of you is more than enough for all of me

I am prideful

i ask for advice and my friends are honest with me, and i want them to be, but then i make stupid excuses...

why? i am not sure, i have nothing to prove, I am a worthless sinner that deserves nothing.

I realized that thing weekend and last night at church that thought was being hammered into my brain...

I want to remember that i am nothing with out my God. He is the reason that i am alive and He has the power to make me something...i do not have that power.

Lord,

Help me to let go....of my pride, my lust and anything else that holds me back
I want to be free...completely and totally free from my self