you are everything

Go watch this video before you read this post

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cyheJ480LYA&feature=channel_page

Amazing....

and everytime i hear that song or see that video i am reminded of God's awesome and amazing love for us.

This video hits me hard because i see myself as the girl, i get so distracted by boys, and body image, and a ton of other things and in the past i have entertained the thoughts of self harm or other things

but no matter how distracted or far away we are Jesus will step in and hold back the demons

He will block them from your mind so you can be fully his.

"Help me to remember that you love me and you are and should be everything to me"

my mind is racing

how can one be so sure of something and then is just a few short weeks that one thing becomes the most confusing thing in the world to them



At LA 09 i was challeged to pursue singleness rather than relantionships, and i was all for it, i bought a book about it, i prayed that my heart would be for God and only God and i was on a good track



but here i sit my mind in a cloud of confusion, so many things have come about that make me think...hmm, I wonder what God wants me to do



I am fighting my self, my thoughts, even my actions. I am not saying that there is one event or person in particular that made me so confused but rather a multitude of talks, sermons, and even friends that have brought this on


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The above part i wrote a week ago, and i hestitated on posting it, but i still feel this confusion, even more so than before

I feel guilty when the thoughts about crushes and relantionships come into my head

I feel scared and unsure of where i am supposed to go in my life

I feel like God's will and his voice are being lost and muffled by my ever wandering thoughts

Lord,
I pray that you reveal your will to me, and that i follow your will for my life. No matter what it is and help me to find contentment in your plans for me.