Monday, February 2, 2009

my mind is racing

how can one be so sure of something and then is just a few short weeks that one thing becomes the most confusing thing in the world to them



At LA 09 i was challeged to pursue singleness rather than relantionships, and i was all for it, i bought a book about it, i prayed that my heart would be for God and only God and i was on a good track



but here i sit my mind in a cloud of confusion, so many things have come about that make me think...hmm, I wonder what God wants me to do



I am fighting my self, my thoughts, even my actions. I am not saying that there is one event or person in particular that made me so confused but rather a multitude of talks, sermons, and even friends that have brought this on


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The above part i wrote a week ago, and i hestitated on posting it, but i still feel this confusion, even more so than before

I feel guilty when the thoughts about crushes and relantionships come into my head

I feel scared and unsure of where i am supposed to go in my life

I feel like God's will and his voice are being lost and muffled by my ever wandering thoughts

Lord,
I pray that you reveal your will to me, and that i follow your will for my life. No matter what it is and help me to find contentment in your plans for me.

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